brand new beginning with a new blog: The one attatched to my msn.

Welcome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What a happy birthday.

Thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

Today is halloween. ......people with fatastic decoration on the street.......people with creative idea around the dc........people with exciting faces .....But I do not know why I can not be as happy as I should be. I think that I d better sleep early today.

 

It is nearly 12:00 o clock on 31st, october now. An end as well as a beginning. a brand new month is coming.:)

I have been here for a month plus three days now. Everything is fine except that I did not study much. I dont know why but it seems that cooking, eating and sleeping took up most of my time(piggy life:P). This is what upsets me most. However, I have to admit that I really had a good time here. Thanks to my flatmates and newly made friends who made me feel least lonely and homesick. I even couldn't believe that we have only known each other for one month because we have already been so close and familiar. I told myself that there is no reason for me not to cherish the friends in UK and the life in Bristol.  No matter what difficulties I may have, study, work or daily life, the one year experience here and the friends I make in Uk would definitely become the precious treasure of my whole life. So what I need to do is to enjoy, to cherish  and to make the most of my stay in Bristol.

 

Last sunday, I went to a christian gathering in a church. The british organisers greeted me in chinese. I was amazed to hear our language. At the beginning, I thought that was only a greeting out of politeness. However, to my surprise, the speaker gave the whole speech in chinese and the westerneres tried to answer all the questions in chinese. Though their pronuniation was far from perfect, their courage and efforts in speaking chinese really impressed me a lot.

 

One concept I feel quite different is that all the students from taiwan emphasize that they are Taiwaness rather than chinese. Besides, it seems that 90% of the people in Uk consider taiwan to be an independent country. One day, several  greek students told me that they found it very difficult to tell Hong kong people from chinese people from their appearance. I told them that you do not need to tell them apart because Hongkong has already become part of china since 1997. They were very surprised and said,' Oh, really? I thought that Hong kong is also an independent courtry  like Taiwan."

 

It is nearly 12 o clock again. Today is the 23 years old birthday of my flatmate LI YUAN. Happy birthday to him again. He is from Beijing so nine people of us went to "Beijing Bistro" and had a wonderful meal. I forgot what I ordered, but it was really delicious. It may because that it looked like " La Tiaozi" in my hometown or because this is the first time for me to eat in a restauant and I tasted the food made by myself for too long...:P I was focused on eating without having time to take a photo of it. But I've taken a picture of the birthday cake just now:P

 

I will sleep now...zZZGood luck to myself and my friends for the days ahead of us.

来到uk的第一篇博客·····

大概是新鲜的面孔太多，新奇的事物太繁，来到Bristol十多天了，总想汇报点什么却不知从何说起，今天是第一天正式上课，statistics in education,感觉不错。教授或许是怕我们被听上去就比较头痛的statistics吓到，首先就发了彩色的糖果，让我们数颜色，并且嘱咐我们在数出数量之前不可以吃掉。谈起布里斯托的教育学院，早在第一天的introduction week里，教授们就很引以自豪的说，the school of education 就算不在全球数一数二也肯定是全英的老大了，所以我们会非常辛苦，要做好准备：（真的是很怕怕，但是我目前还没有进入学习的状态。十天来没有什么大的收获，但是总算是把自己安顿下来了：先是在22号早上飞离北京经阿姆斯特丹到布，23号便去了巨石阵stonehenge旅游, 然后来到dc住在一个温馨的小屋，认识了一群相见恨晚的flatmates，大家聚餐，party. 走遍了能逛到的超市，在冰箱里塞满了吃的喝的，买了一件羽绒服可以对付即将来临的寒冬，去了meseum看 antient egypt展览，在stuent union 眼花缭乱的社团展台前，拿到了各色的小礼品，然后就是无数的socialing,微笑，点头，被布里斯托这座海港城市的魅力所融化着。

 

我是很有方向感的人，来到bristol，这种对地理位置的优势感完全消失了，没有什么正南正北，只有无数的小道，古楼，城堡，然后就是很陡的上坡下坡。尽管迷路已经不止一次了，但是这丝毫不影响我喜欢这座城市，真的，大概是不喜欢高楼和喧嚣吧，自从那夜拖着疲惫从bristol机场出来，坐在老奶奶开的出租车上，我就被这座城市深深的吸引了，我们的学校总是让我有种感觉，那就是拍哈利波特的魔法学校，以后有机会一定会拍更多的照片，呵呵

 

现在该睡觉了，明天再贴照片···

I have been at home for a week now. I do not know what to say because I have too much to say. 回到家乡不由的怀念起冬天在北京的舞台上奋战过的新疆代表队的兄弟姐妹们，怀念照片上一张张可爱的笑脸，希望大家一切都好，也怀念半年前的我，那时侯的心境似乎要比现在轻松许多吧。那些天穿着拖得很长的紫色公主裙，虽然穿起来超级麻烦，但是渐渐发现自己被小朋友们当成了童话王国的公主或者是芭比娃娃，自然也被家长当成了活教材，他们拉着孩子们来找书中的神仙姐姐玩，拥有小小成就感的同时，也真得感谢CCTV的服饰呀～～～～在后台的时候，小精灵们就围过来拉着我那宽大的袖子笑吖，闹呀，看着他们开心的笑脸，我以为我也可以进入一个童话世界。

 

然而生活不是童话，我也不是小仙女，在北京的生活不知道是失去了许多还是学到了不少。那个有点想让我逃离的城市，那种些许能让人窒息的空气，在现在看来，即使不是童话，也渐渐象一场梦一样把它恬适的一面淡出我的记忆，让我学会坚强学会遗忘。现在静静地享受家乡的夏日。一切安然，刺眼的阳光，闲适而幸福的人们，忙忙碌碌的爸爸妈妈`````这应该是离开祖国之前最幸福的一段时光了吧，但是幸福似乎没有必然和应该，只有心底的柔软涌动出的那份真实。

 

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I am here in sculpting time again. I think that I have fallen in love with this place only if I can order nothing but stay. I am going to leave Beijing and I still remembered the time when I came here four months ago especially when I looked at the pictures taken during the competition "youth china". Attatched are the photos which have recorded the precious experiences right after my arrival here. It is complicated feeling to write my blog and upload thoses photos four months later now( though a little bit later:P). Commemorating the past or welcoming the future, who knows. A full stop to the past or to say a beginning of a new life page:P. Maybe this coffee shop can explain it for me and no wonder it is called the "sulpting Time"~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I have been waiting for the result of visa application for exactly one week now and I hope everything gonna be fine:). The future schoolmates in Bristol gathered in Beijing the day before the last. We went to have the health check together and even shopping. It is really pleasant feeling to know these new friends before my departure:)

 

Now I am sitting beside the window in "sculpting in time" coffe shop by myself. It is the same environment when I wrote my last article on my blog. I suddenly got the mood to write something when I came here every time and I really enjoy the feeling of staying beside the window and with a cup of coffee in front of me( though it may become a sleepless night in Beijing for me:P).

 

Once I got satisfied and even proud that I have so many nice people to depend on, such as my parents, friends. They care about me and even take care of me sometimes. However, I realized that independence is happiness indeed. To be frank, the first time for me to take the subway by myself is last month,:P. Recently, I prepared all my luggage and did a lot of things along.  Now I know that I underestimated my ability of independence. Well, I have to go. Take care of urself everybody:P It is a little bit late

Recenly, I was asked frequently about the laziness of writing nothing during more than three months. I am still in Beijing now. I really cherish the life here. I got some good friends such as Wenjiang, the girl I learned a lot from, the independence, the attitudes towards life and the appreciation of beauty.

 

For love, I really do not know what to say. I prefer writing nothing rather than anything because it is really difficult for me to keep everything remembered or to say I do not have the courage to do so. Maybe trying to have gratitude is the only way to face, to forgive, and to forget. I hope I will smile someday in the future but my heart is a little bit tired. It is really hard to say.

 

Anyway, I am in the process of visa application. Wish me good luck and I will be back home soon my dear xdjm.:P

 

 

大概有半个月没有上网了，从大年初二来北京之后， 新疆的手机没有信号，加上刚刚从封闭训练集中营里面放出来，感觉自己终于从蒸发的状态又重新回到了纷繁的世上。就像从前在自由英语的经历一样，我突然开始想念在比赛中，在为晚会集训一起奋斗的日子里，那些来自祖国四面八方的兄弟姐妹，大家一起在录音棚里录音，相互鼓励，说起来偶还是个队长呢，想起可爱的“卓玛”，纯朴的“延边”，“康定”大哥，“阿瓦人民”，“阿哩哩”“草原”阿姨.......，想起可爱的小朋友围着我的巴比裙子笑阿跳阿，一种说不出的幸福，一种只有我们懂得语言和默契，值得庆幸的是，我们把这一切都永远的留在了舞台上，留在了荧屏上。尽管只有短短十天，但是难忘的事情真的很多，我们新疆代表队的歌舞和乐队征服了许许多多观众的眼球，他们的风采在首都写下了精彩的一页。等有时间了一定要记录下来，现在我将开始一段在北京的新生活，祝自己祝大家好运。

PS：前天北京下大雪了，去北外上课的时候整个鞋子都湿了。依稀感觉冬天天又回来了，不过春天还是不远了：）今天阳光很刺眼....

　　今天偶然浏览到别人的一篇博客，突然让自己觉得很惭愧，我很喜欢他文章里的一句话“其实成功不是结果，它是一种勇于追求全心投入的状态，珍惜我们还有奋斗的权力。”我发现，自己真的没有勇气像他那样对自己说：心里没有一丝的悔恨和遗憾，因为我很努力了。”相反，我时常充当了自己的辩护人，当因为虚度光阴而懊悔的时候，当梦想与现实擦肩而过的时候，当计划与变化事与愿违的时候，我总是试图说服自己，我已经努力了，这样已经不错了。事实上，我知道自己能够做的远不止这些，依稀觉得梦想在渐行渐远，让我有些恐慌。

 

　　 在家的这几个月应该算是一段梳理自己的黄金岁月罢，我想一生中也不会有太多这样悠闲的陪爸爸妈妈住在一起悠闲自在的时光了，只是每每在告诉别人自己没有在工作也没在上学的时候，似乎有些尴尬，但我知道我已经完全不用在乎别人的担忧抑或是不解了。我细细的回想自己这半年的收获，不算多但日子也算充实……八月去了西部边界，久违的赛里木湖，阿拉山口，博尔卡拉蒙古自治州和伊黎。我学了驾照，带了一个学期大二民航英语专业的课，认识了很多新朋友，小云，不老哥，LJ`还考了雅思，并且拿到了英国曼彻斯特大学和布里斯托大学的通知书，再然后我能想起来的骄傲也就只有让保姆阿姨退休我自己动手风衣足食了这件事了～～～

 

　　　然而当我看到借来半个多月的心理学英文课本静静的躺在那里，让我兴奋了一时的钢琴逐渐成了一件家具，声乐课也一再的搁浅时，我知道必须从这种慵懒的状态走出来了。最近发现自己一种很不好的习惯－－－－－－逃避和不喜欢去争取。那天我回忆自己做公共车的经历，顿时恍然大悟。那天不巧，三次去车站坐车，都是快走到站台前时公共车正好来，而我宁愿在寒冬中苦等二十分钟，也不愿努力的追上去，当我分析自己本能这么做的心理原因时，不禁吓了一跳，这不正是我平时对待很多问题的态度么。我不去追逐，不是因为赶不上，更不是期待享受寒风的刺骨，而是懒，觉得麻烦。我不禁回想到自己的很多经历，在申请剑桥的时候，我多少次因为它琐碎的申请肢解而想放弃，最终我用两份推荐信代替了三份勉强寄出，材料有些粗糙，好在前天还是收到了它布置写评论的考察任务。但是在后来的牛津申请中，我实在受不了那些琐碎的材料要求，最终放弃了｀｀｀

 

　　　越写越感到，自己在这里写博客真是一种巨大的奢侈了，剑桥的评估任务迫在眉睫，我没有去看去写；布里斯托心理学课程导师的阅读要求依然躺在邮件里；从声乐老师那里上课回来，也未能坚持练习；打算报的舞蹈班也没有找到时间参加；面对美女小老师的嘱咐，我依然让她让钢琴失望；我即将参加的乐器，主持，英语唱歌大赛也丝毫没有准备：（；信誓旦旦打算包揽家里卫生与伙食的我，最终也不过是凭着兴趣在厨房折腾过几番：（但愿我不会再逃避自己遇到的困难，但愿我的○七年快要成为过去的时候，我同样可以对自己说：我无怨无悔，我全力以赴了～但愿罢，无论如何，我会努力的～～～～A ZA A ZA FIGHTING

Well, I have not watered my flowers here for long. What a shame. It is a wonderful and special day today and life is gonna be pretty busy lately. However, it is the time to report to my friends about what I am engaged in during the past two or three weeks. I took part in nearly four stage performances recently---------Music instrument playing(Dulcimer), Singing(folk song), Hosting competition as well as English. Besides, I began to learn cooking from the beggining of the new year because I believe that on the one hand, this will be one of the essential surviving skills in the future, and on the other, it really made me a touch of achievement once I could do sth for my whole family. In addition, by the help of my friend Mr Fang, I borrowed several psychological books of English version from Shi Hezi University so that I can do the introductary reading assignments suggested by my course director in the University of Bristol. last but not least, I picked up the singing courses again and ````````Well, I'll sum them up later. Take good care about ur body and put a big smile on ur face to wel com the spring festival, my friends.

The midwinter(冬至） is coming. I feel chilly outside but warm inside. I had dumplings for lunch and what about u, my friends. Take care of ur ears as well as ur body.:). Attatched were photos of my hometown at this time of the year. Welcome people from all over the world to come to Xinjiang to appreciate the beauty of the ice city here.

Something important happened today--an ending as well as a begining. However, I still hope that this will make little difference to my life. God blesses the person to whom I want to send my best wishes. Some words seem easily to express but I find it difficult to accept thoroughly. Anyway, happiness will absolutely wave hands to us in the coming future but just respectively. "seperately" is the only regret I suppose. 

As a representitive of teachers, I performed in the activity in our school to commemorate the 71st anniversary of 12.9. I sang a vocal solo and played dulcimer again. What comforted me was that I didn't forget how to play this music instrument after 5 years of departure from it. My lovely students and the atmosphere of performing on stage brought back the fresh memory of past time. It seems that being a student to take part in the art festivals in high school was just something happened yesterday,( of course, maybe it was:p) Well, stop here today. There are too much to say which, on the contrary, makes me speechless.

ps: Apart from teaching, I spent most of my time staying at home recently because I haven't got used to the weather here in my hometown until now. However, when I stepped out of our house yesterday, something attractive made me enjoy the weather so much, the snowing scenery, the pure beauty of winter and the fresh air, though cool but sweet. I'll attatch the photos of winter here in the future.

I felt a little blue recently but I do not know why. It isn't because something terrible happened in my life. Contrarily, it turned out not bad. However, worries out of nothing is much more troublesome to handle because It is hard for me to look for a clue in curing it.

 

Acturally, life is far from bad lately, on the contrary, it seems pretty good. My uncle got married yesterday. I bought a nice suit dress the day before yesterday, a pink one which is very lovely:0. Besides, I was admitted by Bristol University majoring in Psychology of Education the day before the day before yesterday and I received the unconditional offer letter of Manchester University in person the day before(``````Let me see,:pIt's too complicated by trying to describe it that way. That was 23th, November, exactly the day of Thankgiving).

 

However, I suddenly found myself lost the interests on lots of staffs lately. I do not want to do anything including sleeping and playing musical instrument~`~`~,let along reading, having classes and so on. Maybe my uncle's marriage, the cold weather or the mood circle could acount for this phenomenon, who knows~~~

 

My uncle is my mother's little younger brother who is seven years older than me. He is not only my uncle but also my bossom friend. He is very handsome and kind-hearted. He is 1.82 metres tall and looks like the actor starring as 保尔柯察金but has smaller mouth than him. He can cook fatastic dishes for the whole family and he also got the ambition for his career too. He has been working earnestly no matter as an engineer or a teacher. My grandmother got cerebral thrombosis early in 1980 and became paralytic then. He began to help in looking after my grandma when he was only a pupil. After his brothers and sisters( my aunts, other uncles and my mom)got married and built their own familis, my uncle helped my grandpa more in looking after my grandma. Very often have I seen him washing my grandma's face or feeding her patiently when I went back to see my grandparents. When I was little, we usually have fun together, the happiness in the memory of my childhood with him lingers in our mind forever. He brought me to hunt birds in the woods and built houses using the mud near the river, which ended up by losing one of my beloved red sandals along the river. He photographed me and taught me how to pose like a monk(maybe nun is better) because my hairstyle is exetremly cool at that time--bareheaded. He pointed nine dots on the top of my head. Even until now, I have been cherished this precious photo:P. In my view, he is one of the rare good men in this world, cutting out for being a husband. Now he finally got married at the age of 30 years old and the number of rare men became much more rare after his marriage. Manyyyyyyyyy many wishes to my little uncle and I hope he will be happy in his coming days. Besides, the wedding ceremony is a success and he is really attractive among hundreds of friends and relatives yesterday. I am really proud of him but the only pity is that my grandma has no chance to witness it alive. She passed away three years ago peacefully.

 

In addition, the increasingly cold weather made me feel chilly but the cool tastes of the air smells so familiar-----that's the smell of hometown in winter time. The first snow in 2006 came a litte late than previous years(哈，有点象歌词，2006的第一场雪来得比往年都晚了些，是这样的没错哦，都十一月了）But finally it appears white everywhere now, still gorgeous! Moreover, though the striving direction between my boyfriend and I vary so greatly and the possibilities for us to be together seems to be very vague in the future, we are still grateful and understandable to each other. At last, Taking mood circle into account, then I will feel better after days later. The problem was that it seemed no reason for me to feel sad but I did. I'll try to adjust myself to the right track as soon as possible.

《月光女神》歌词

 Are you going to Scarborough Fair?
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Remember me to one who lives there
She once was a true love of mine

Tell her to make me a cambric shirt
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Without no seams nor needle work
Then She'll be a true love of mine

Tell her to find me an acre of land
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Between salt water and the sea strands
Then She'll be a true love of mine

Tell her to reap it with a sickle of leather
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
And gather it all in a bunch of heather
Then She'll be a true love of mine

Are you going to Scarborough Fair?
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Remember me to one who lives there
She once was a true love of mine

I was once doubtful on what I have accomplished during my four years university life. Now I am back in Shi Hezi where I had spent 18 years to grow before going to Tianjin. It seems to me that the memory of my university life passed away in a twinkling or even never existed before. However, the traces of those memorable sceneries in the past four years take on its charming fantacy gradually.

 

The first joy for me is to find myself competent in public speaking.:) I have been a college teacher for a week now. I still remembered when I  stepped into my class to listen to their advanced English lessons by an experienced old teacher. At that time, I suppose neither of them considered me to be a teacher who was witnessing their performances in the back of the classroom. so they paid no attention to me and just did what they like as unual. Some of the naughty boys were listening to mp3 and some are eating while chatting happily.

 

After the class, I have realized how difficult is it to handle these demanding kids( it is strange to call them kids since they are already sophomores, or maybe  I became old:( and mature:)). When I was about to go back home and think carefully how to prepare my first class,  I was asked to teach them public speaking courses right in the following two classes. I told them I prepared nothing but they insisted to believe that it was a piece of cake for me because I have taken part in lots of national English speaking contests. I knew it is totally different from the competition in that teaching is to inspire its students in learning rather than showing one's ability only. However, the bell was ringing soon and there was no time for me to think and be afraid but to step into the door. Maybe I should believe in myself too since they trust me so earnestly.

 

The sequent two hours, my first formal teaching experience, was exciting and not as hard as I have imagined. At least, the naughty boys didn't embarrass me at all as the terrible situation I had seen previously. Instead, they participated in the interactions I have organized, which was to some extent, a miracle. I gave the slogan" do not worry, just do it" to them and asked them to speak out loudly every time before class. I encouraged them whenever I have found a trace of improvement in them. I told them "if you think you can, then you can."

 

In my first day of teaching, I was surrounded by a group of students during the brake time , a pretty girl said to me shyly:" Will you stay for long, teacher?" Suddenly, I didn't know how to answer them because I was not sure about that myself." Well, I will be here with you all at least in this semester.:)" Then the girl's reply really made me moved and encouraged. She said:"let us study harder and harder and make you reluctant to leave us:)" " Well, I will try to stay as long as possible.````"

 

My heart was blessed with thankful feelings and precious memories, some of which were taken for granted by me before because I did not realize its significance thoroughly. Currently, an increasing number of people tend to complain that they have learned nothing during their four years university life. As a matter of fact, they have gained far from nothing. Even the time  spent for communicating with bosom friends will become a big forture for life. Potential changes took place silently in our mind, body as well as atitudes towards life.

 

Four years ago, My face was fluching and my body was trembling even it was only a small public speech in Chinese.  Today, No matter it was CCTV final facing spotlights everywhere, or 21st century cup national speaking competition in a strange city, I could deliver my thoughts confidently. If were not the help of my couch Mrs Xia and the oppotunity given by my university and Tianjin, I could not achieve this.

 

Four years ago, I considered myself forever as a kid to be looked after  and a student to be supervised. Now I became a teacher to express my love and care to my students. If were not the slogan "do not worry, just do it" provided by Mr Gillis----My foreign teacher in my senior year in Univ, I would still wonder among millions of possibilities of difficulty which baffle me from further development. I remembered another saying goes like: Nothing is imppossible! It's true.

 

What worth mentioning is the experience spent with "Free English". I really benefited a lot in its teacher training programme. Mr Jump, who told us the skill of infulencing one's students possitively, was affecting us with his own personal enchantment as well. Actually, most of the teaching technics I am using now are the knowlege I have abtained there, including eye contact, gesture, style of speaking and even the skills in handling the so called problem-student in terms of psychology.

 

All in all, there is a long way to go in the field of teaching and I enjoy what I am doing now. Stop my blablabla here today:)----------an extremely mild day!